Currently Stressing

I wrote this Thursday:

I have a final today.
It's in about 25 minutes and I'm getting a bit nervous

I've studied, but I still feel not ready. It's hard to study for this class and I really don't like the teacher. I'm happy to be done with this class for the rest of life, you know, unless I fucking fail

I don't know what I'd do if I failed...

Since I've already failed two classes last year and dropped one with a Withdraw, that takes up the three redo classes that I get from my college

Now it's Saturday and I realize that I was stressing for no reason
At the time, it wasn't for no reason because I had that final.
I did fail it
BUT I made a C in the class and that's good enough for me!
I'm honestly so happy that I passed the class with a C. I expected to fail the entire class. When I saw that I had a C in the class, the biggest weight came off my shoulders.

I was laying in my boyfriends bed and when he came into the room, I was smiling and he noticed. God, I was so happy.

I am still stressed though

I have so much work coming up for school and it's getting to the point where I don't even want to do anything anymore. I just want to push off every single thing I have and just lay in my bed.

I'm currently trying to finish Keeping Up With the Kardashians. I literally have about 9 episodes left until I'm done with season 9 and I've already watched season 10 through episode 19, I believe. I'm trying to finish before I go home for Thanksgiving break on Wednesday. I have all of the new episodes recorded on my TV to watch and I want to be done with season 9 before I watch any more of season 10!

I'm also watching 90210 right now! I'm in season 2 so that's exciting! It's such a good show ugh

I WATCHED THE HUNGER GAMES: MOCKINGJAY PART 2 
oh my god, it was amazing. EVERYONE SHOULD GO WATCH. it was so so so good! And I also got a free poster that I hung on the back of my bedroom door! ugh, i'm sad the trilogy is over. I could cry solely because it's over.
I cried when Harry Potter ended because that was like my entire childhood

Thanks for reading guys!

Have an A1 day lovelies!

New Leaf

ha, get it, new LEAF and it's fall?
im just so clever
and punny
wow no

ANYWAY,
I have gotten myself to finally edit this website! I am officially DONE
What I mean by this is, if you look at the top, there are different links. If you click on them, they will each take you to different places! Some have one post underneath and some have specific posts under them from past posts.
I went through all the posts I've ever done (since 2011, damn) and tagged them or deleted them

Some of the things I used to post were absolutely stupid and useless so I just deleted some of them! I kept others that weren't too bad or were useful! Some had some information about me and my life so feel free to go back and look and read and explore and creep on me!

Remember, the posts at the beginning were from 2011 so don't judge on my writing. I was a young child LOL
that was only 4 years ago, Libby.......

But, I want this website to be fun and enjoyable and about my day to day life
I'm in a relationship, in college, and having so much fun at school, but also having some difficulties. I'd like to be able to write about these fun adventures and the stresses of college here so family, friends, and others can read along!

I just wanted to fill you guys in on this website being remodeled and finished! I hope you guys enjoy! I'm glad I finally figured out the pages thing!

Have an A1 day bitchachos! :)
xx

Am I Crazy Yet?

So I got to see my boyfriend yesterday for dinner. We went out to eat, then he took me back to my dorm room so he could go over to his friends house. They were drinking, so I didn't expect him to text me much, because when they drink, they play computer games so he doesn't exactly have a hand to text with.

Anyway, I've been wondering lately if I'm a clingy girlfriend or not. So I took myself to a little thing called google and literally searched "am I clingy quiz?" LMFAO

click here for the link if you'd also like to know just how clingy you are!

Here are my results:

Kinda Clingy

You strike the perfect balance between being overbearing and laid-back when it comes to your BF. You enjoy the time you guys spend together but realize it's OK to be apart, too. You two have a great sense of trust in your relationship that makes you an amazing couple. Good for you!

So that makes me feel good!!

Then, I searched "Am I in love quiz?" lol don't judge, i just wanted to see what it'd say!

again, click here for the quiz!

my results:

Completely in Love

You have fallen head over heals! Your boyfriend/girlfriend is so lucky to have you in their lives. Don't let this feeling go.

OH GEEZ

I'm taking another

link here!

Your Feelings for Your Crush are the Real Deal

It's not just because they're hot, or they're on the soccer team, or have that cool senior thing going for them. It's not just the idea of your crush that makes your stomach drop whenever they're around. The more you get to know your crush, quirks and all, the more you like them. And the way they make you feel when you're hanging out or texting makes you want to be around them all the time. You've shared personal things about yourselves that you've never told anyone else and they're the person you come to when you have good news or bad, because you know they'll be there for you. Even if you're not ready to say "I love you" yet, that kind of intimacy, trust, and deep connection are the foundation for lasting love.

Okay, THAT'S more believable! The only thing with the second quiz is that it's more for high schoolers who are crushing on someone. I'm already dating my man! 

Also, yesterday, November 4th, marks 5 months of talking to my bae!

On the 10th, it'll be 2 official months and the 14th is his birthday, so I can't wait for us to go out and celebrate! I bought his birthday presents yesterday! I won't spoil that here because I don't want anyone to see, even though I doubt anyone will! 

I have to go now because my laptop is about to die any second!

have an A1 day peeps! xx

What is he thinking?

For those of you who don't know, I have a boyfriend now.

I feel...
crazy
insane
clingy
standoffish
psycho

that's just to name a few

Anyway, I can't get him off my mind. I wish I knew what he was thinking, I really do. Guys are so complicated to me, I don't get it. And it isn't like I can just be like, "hey tell me everything you're thinking" because that'll make me look cray cray

I'm the type that doesn't wait around to text back, message him a million times if he takes a long time to text back, freak out or get mad with him if he can't hang out/makes other plans. I understand he has other people in his life too.
The world doesn't revolve around us girl, ladies
as weird as that may be

He doesn't text all that much and he's a busy bee so he'll take a long time to text back a lot of the time. For instance, today, he just now texted me and it's nearing 6pm. Some girls would go crazy over that...
Then again, maybe I am going crazy because I'm sitting here writing this blog post

He drives me crazy
I want to tell him
I want to just be with him

I feel like that's normal though, for a gf to want to be with her bf

So here's my problem:

I overthink EVERYTHING
text messages, talking, conversations, pictures, names, you name it
I don't go crazy over them, but I do think about a lot all the time
I'll get nervous to ask him to hang out, but he's my boyfriend, I should be able to say whatever the hell I want without it being all too weird

I always think about him and I can't help but wonder if he's thinking about me too. I want to spend so much time with him, but he's older and is so independent, sometimes it's hard to tell if he wants to spend time with me as much as I do him. I hope that makes sense
I'm a very dependent person. I don't usually put all of the dependency on one person, like if he can't hang out, I'll go to one of my friends
but he's super independent
I just wonder if I'm the one in the relationship who has more feelings than the other partner

Also:
I never say anything crazy to him
I want to come off as chill
and to some point, I am
but again, i overthink everything
therefore, I freak out to my friends instead of him
I don't want to seem clingy or too attached or something

I'm drained too.
I have slept 30 minutes in the past 31 hours
I've been to three classes today and about to go to my last
I had two tests, one quiz, and two papers to revise/write
welcome to college
I need sleep
I want cuddling
I don't want to ask to hang out again because I don't want to get annoying or overbearing

Maybe i'm crazy, maybe I'm not. Who's to say?
I don't think I'm going crazy
at least i'm not one of those girls texting their boys 20 times in one minutes because they didn't text back in a certain amount of time... like come on, they have lives too...

for now, this is a goodbye
ttyl bitchachos xx